Thursday, August 27, 2009

Too true...

Quote from my landlord upon inspecting our freezer to see why it is making a weird noise:

"Wow, you have a lot of cheese in your life."

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

The problem with cleaning...

The problem with cleaning is that the more you clean, the more you realize you need to clean. When you throw away the junk under your bed, you realize how much dirt is down there. And then when you've swept it, you notice all the dirt along the baseboards. And then when you've cleaned those, you say, "wow, I should do something about these scuff marks on the wall." It's like the more clean something is, the more the things that aren't clean jump out at you. How do people who keep their house in a reasonable state of order stay sane?

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

I feel bad about my eyebrows...



I went in for a haircut the other day, and one thing led to another, and before I knew it, my eyebrows were the thinnest they have been my entire life. It has taken some getting used to for me. I’ve realized I like them, and that is what bothers me.


I have a quirky uber-feminist-inspired loathing of conforming to the way a woman is supposed to look. I refuse to own a scale, preferring to focus on being healthy, rather than thin. I don’t wear makeup, and I usually give up on trying to locate my curling iron on those rare occasions I feel I need to look nice to be respectful (weddings, etc). I won’t wear uncomfortable high-heeled shoes because it reminds me too much of foot binding. I do shave my legs out of courtesy to other people at church, but I do it grudgingly, all the while resenting the fact men don’t have to. I have a powerful need to accept myself for who I am, not what I look like, and only surround myself with people who value who I am and don’t care about my appearance.


The same goes for my eyebrows. I’ve always left them thick, just plucking away the stray hairs, and yes, resenting the fact that men don’t have to. But I realized I’d been slacking in that regard the past few months, so I had the stylist do something about it. They were a lot thinner than I expected them to be, and yes, I realize they aren’t all that thin. I was horrified at first. But now I keep looking in the mirror and saying, “hey, I kind of like these.” I can’t explain it, but I feel really vain. Part of me feels like I sold out, but the other part of me likes it because it feels like I did something to take care of myself, which is a luxury for mothers of young kids. And now I catch myself wondering if I ought to look for some new clothes because putting them on would make me feel like I’m pampering myself again … what is happening to me?

Saturday, August 22, 2009

I did it

I finally gave in, and I am now on facebook. I'll be actually putting on content and looking for you all during Emily's naps over the next few days (come find me if I haven't friended you yet).

Friday, August 21, 2009

Voice

Yesterday, I realized in the course of the conversation that a friend of a friend I was talking to was a blogger that I read regularly. It was odd meeting a person that had already bared their soul to me on many occasions, via the internet. I knew what she did for a living before she had kids (and that on some days, she misses it, but knows she made the right decision), the crazy stunts her kids had pulled, her struggles with kidney disease and infertility, and parts of her spiritual journey. I even knew what TV series she is watching on DVD. Right from the start, I knew things about her that I don't know about people I hang out with regularly. It was interesting comparing the picture I had of her in my mind with the woman before me. She looked different than I expected her to. Her mannerisms were different. I doubt I'll see her again, but it was interesting thinking about how you'd build a relationship with someone you already know so much about, but have a slightly askew sense of who they are.


I've been thinking about my own voice when I write, and how I come across. Honestly, I prefer my writing voice to the one that I speak with. Not that I'm about to give up speaking, but still. My writing voice is more polished and introspective. I have more time to think through things, and I can use care in what I say. Unless, of course, Emily has woken from her nap, and then I slop things out quickly because I've learned that if I don't post it as I write it, I never go back to it. I don't have the gift of public speaking. I have this awful valley girl habit of using the word "like" that I have unsuccessfully been trying to break for years. And "dude." When I speak in public, my mind can't keep up with my words, and I find myself using the word "um" obsessively. And I'm a lot more open in my writing. On my assorted blogs, and places I've done guest posts, I'll confide things that people I hang out with regularly don't know about me. I wonder if people that exclusively read me or listen to me have different senses of what I'm like, and who is right.


I'm not sure where I'm going with this, and Emily is waking up, so I'm just slopping this out, but do any of you have similar experiences? Do you feel like your writing and speaking voices are pretty much the same, or different? Are you more or less reserved on your blogs/facebook/journal/etc?

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Some videos for the grandparents

Be warned: these will probably only be interesting for the grandparents, but they are here all the same.

This one is an Emily kiss attack. It includes obsessive giggling on my part (because really, it is too darn cute).

The quality on this one isn't great, but it shows Emily's favorite game: "Boing Boing"

Emily's other favorite game: Raspberries

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Advice, please


I want to harvest the knowledge of my intelligent readers. Share your wisdom with me!
1 - I've realized my understanding of economics is severely lacking, and I want to do something about it. I've thought about doing some of the MIT Open Courseware on economics, but aside from that, I don't know how to approach it. Are there any books you recommend, or blogs you read, that would be a good foundation for someone whose economic knowledge doesn't go much farther than knowing terms like opportunity cost and the difference between micro and macroeconomics?
2 - Emily sleeps in her playpin because every time I lay her down in her crib, she winds up in the position pictured above, and panics because she can't get herself out (and yes, the crib slats are regulation size). Any ideas for how to prevent her from sticking her legs through the slats? She's getting too big for the bassinet portion of her pack n' play, and I'm not sure I'm coordinated enough to lay her in the bottom without waking her.
3 - I'm trying to diversify my reading and try new things. Hit me with some book recommendations!